After years of remaining tightly wound, yet perfectly safe on the clearest path towards the future (or at least, A future), I knew I had to do it. I had to pull the pin and toss the grenade into the centre of my life; the safety, the security, the knowing. Oh gosh, that knowing.
However, want to know what lives outside of that knowing? Outside of your comfort zone? Absolutely everything.
All of your hopes, your dreams and all of the amazing things you once believed were beyond your reach, “are meant for someone else/someone braver/someone more deserving” or the things that you have always been told, “that isn’t real life.” I am living proof that it is. It can be real life. But, sometimes you have to pull the damn pin.
Now, please don’t get me wrong: I don’t mean that if you are in a wonderful career/relationship/[fill in the blank], to find happiness or freedom, that you have to kick everything to the curb, give your life the double guns and hit the road. Quite the contrary. Though I personally chose to make many seemingly substantial changes in the path I chose (moving, changing careers and ending a very long relationship), all of this is really truly and honestly a battle of our minds. It is the battle within us that is the greatest barrier. We do not have to go anywhere physically. Be conscious and choose the path that is right for you.
Perhaps it resembles evolving and prioritizing a self-care routine for yourself if you are continually working overtime or maybe have little ones running around that consume every ounce of your energy. Perhaps it is finally giving yourself “permission.” (Though don’t even get me started on us needing to “give ourselves permission” to do what is best for ourselves! Okay, you’re right, I will get to that post someday, and probably sooner than later.) To go back to school or seek training to following that career path you truly always wanted to follow but was told by others that that wasn’t a “real job” or that that was a “hobby.” Sound familiar?
Whatever that internal struggle currently is for you, and we all have them, I want you to know this: Whatever is on the other side once you have pulled the pin, tossed the grenade, and that proverbial dust settles, will be worth it.
“The cost of not following your heart is spending the rest of your life wishing you had.” -Nanu